Thursday, February 09, 2006

If I Were More Awake, I'd Call This Stream of Consciousness

It is now 6:14 am and I’m on my second cup of coffee. There are only two things that can get me out of bed this early (5:30 am.)

1. A plane to catch to some fabulous place: London.
2. Being so angry I want to hit something.

It’s the latter this time. Usually, when I awake at 5:30, I can stumble (literally, stumble, banging into walls and furniture) into the bathroom, take care of my immediate needs and go straight back to bed and fall asleep without a thought. But not when I’m furious, which I am right now. And guess why: job, again. I was treated so unfairly yesterday that I am actually going to write a letter to Human Resources and complain, which will then label me a Troublemaker, I’m sure, but I am still going to do it. (Yes, I’ve learned that if you complain about anything, ANYTHING, in the work world, you are forever deemed a Troublemaker.) Although I’m not going to go into detail, I’ll tell you that I am right to be so pissed off that I want to hit something. Last night while stuffing sushi into my mouth as fast as I could possibly chew, I told my brother, Don the Professor Who Has It Made With His University Teaching Job, that I hate working. Not entirely true. I just hate this dumb job. That’s the last I’ll say about it. For now. I told Don that I was going to devote the next few months to trying to find a way to support myself without having the displeasure of looking, every day, at a very ugly Nazi-freaking-boss who is an idiot without a college degree. Hello, Internet? I need you to help me find work. Anything that involves writing or editing in some capacity. And speaking of degrees, you’d think that an MA in English would get me someplace, wouldn’tcha? Well, y'all, it ain't helpin' me none. I guess I just haven’t looked into the subject extensively enough yet, but now I’m going to do just that.

Other things that are popping into my head right now:

It’s a crying shame when your imagination far exceeds your budget.

I want to learn how to sew and make pretty throw pillows to go with the bedspread for which I’m still searching.

My grandmother has a sewing machine she’s wanting to give me.

I need to get all of my photos into scrapbooks before August.

I am going to learn to refinish furniture this year.

Remind me to tell you what I did to my dog. That's a post unto its own.

That stack of books beside my bed only gets taller. The only way I’ll ever read every book I want to read is to live five hundred more years. Oh, and no more books will be written. Ever. And no new New Yorkers will ever be printed. Love those short stories, too.

I’m leaving for school in August. I just don’t know where I’m going, yet.

I could use some feedback on these cities, since they are the cities with schools to which I’m applying for Fall of this year:

Denton, TX
Knoxville, TN
Norman, OK
Columbia, MO
Lexington, KY

I think Amanda knows a little something about Denton. Tell me about it, Amanda, please! The rest of you guys, give me some input if you know anything about these places that I can’t find by Googling them. Pretty please with M&Ms on top.

A bag of M&Ms would be good with my coffee right now.

7 comments:

Angela in Europe said...

I met Miss Gay Missouri at a drag club in Columbia and he was very nice.

Wish I could help with the Masters deal, but I got one too and it ain't helping me either.

Amanda Sue said...

i haven't ever been to denton, but jessica at www.justsayjes.com used to live there (she went to UNT)

come on to texas! i will at least visit you! it is only about 3 hours from here and i head that way pretty frequently.

WHY ARE YOU GOING BACK TO SCHOOL?? i hope it is for a PhD this time! :)

quycksilver said...

From one trouble maker to another (see my blog for details if you're interested) . . .

Anyway,
I hear that Knoxville isn't bad, though I've never been there, and I would have been happy to work at UT, but I didn't get that job. It's a good school though, from what I understand, and Knoxville is apparently a pretty nice city--not too big, not too small.

A good friend of mine might be mving to columbia, MO and she says that it is flat and brown this time of year, but that the people she met at the university are really nice. She did say that there are some serious issues with the library though--lacking some pretty major research materials in the humanities . . . I don't really know much about it since we do different things, but it could be cause for further investigation . . .

That's all I know.
Good Luck!

craziequeen said...

aww....what did you do to your pooch??

cq

DebbieDoesLife said...

The PETA people want to know what you did to the dog.

I make a part time living from freelance copy writing. My degree is in communications with a minor in English. Most of why people hire me isn't a brilliant writing ability but my ability to get along with others, hit my deadline, understand what they need before they do.

I have driven through Denton many, many times on the way to OKC. Nice little town. Would this make you a Screaming Eagle??

Miz S said...

Aw. I'm sorry your job sucks. Hang in there--it's only 7 more months, right? (Although that's a long time when you hate your job.) Get your MLS and come work in a school. We need nice people like you.

Raehan said...

Hey, I'll hire you to finish my scrapbooks for me.

When they are done, I am through with scrapbooks. Ofoto has a great make-it-yourself album thingy.

Hang in there with the job troubles. Don't let anyone treat you like that.