Tuesday, June 20, 2006

No Like Change

There is absolutely nothing going on right now and I shouldn't be complaining. It's going to get pretty hectic around here next month, when I have to begin packing for my move. I'm planning to start sorting out all the stuff next week and I'm going to have a garage sale, or carport sale in my case, in July. Oh, how I dread it. I hate having those sales. My mom, Auntie Linda, and I have had several sales and I get so aggravated with the people who come to them, I want to explode before the day is over. First, we begin the sales at 7:00 a.m. On a Saturday. That, in and of itself, should explain my attitude. Then, we have people come to our sales and turn up their noses and ask stupid questions like, "will you take a nickel for that stereo?" Or, "five dollars is too much for that purse," when it's a freaking FENDI bag. If you've ever had one of these sales you understand. I'll be sure and report back after it's over.

I did get good news: I got the financing for school. I have to pay out-of-state tuition, so the financing will only be enough to pay tuition and books, but at least I got that. I was hoping not to have to pay out-of-state tuition, because often bordering states have this Academic Common Market thing which allows someone like me to go to school in Missouri and pay in-state fees. But no. I checked on this and found out today that it doesn't work that way with Arkansas. I will be able to establish residency in twelve months, but until then, I'm out-of-state. I'm a little bummed about that, but I'll get over it. The good news is that I'll be able to go full-time to school and have my master's in two years.

The moving away is starting to hit me. I know, everyone moves away from home at one time or another. Well, huh uh. Not in my family. We (95% of us) are tied to our hometown with the strongest apron strings you've never seen. All five of my grandmother's children live within a ten-minute drive of her house. Both my brothers live here. Practically all of my cousins live here. Did I mention Emily and Reece are here?? I can't even THINK about leaving them. That's going to kill me a little. Therefore, I'm getting homesick already. I've been dying to get out of here for years and see how it would be to live away and have a different life. But now that it's fast approaching, I'm a little reticent. Maybe if I'd done this when I was in my twenties or thirties it wouldn't be so difficult, but the older I get the less I like change. I think most people are this way. However, it's time to get out of my comfort zone and get on with life and see what's out there.

6 comments:

Crazy MomCat said...

I think it is JUST AWESOME what you're doing, Vanessa! It takes guts, especially given your family and its close proximity, to pick up and move. I'd try to look at it as this--you're doing this for school and worst case if you hate it you'll be back in a couple of years. Right?

I can't wait to follow your adventures moving to a new place. I got married right out of college and I missed getting to strike out on my own really. I bet that niece and nephew will be burning up the email and phone lines keeping up with Auntie too...

Irene said...

(((hugs)))
I know leaving your family is going to be very hard for you, especially Reece and Emily. know that we'll always be here to support you. good luck with the garage sale. I hate stupid questions, that's why I give everything away now. no one complains about free stuff!

Nicole said...

Good luck with all the change that coming this summer! I think I must have missed your decision -- which school did you choose?

Miz S said...

It's going to be hard, I know. But so exciting, too!

Julie said...

I'm really impressed that you're making a life-change like this. You're a good inspiration.

Angela in Europe said...

OH Nessa, you are going to have such a good time in Columbia! Anything is better than Jonesboro. Plus you will have a fantastic career in two years. I am so happy for you!